Waiting

--- frank discussion ---



So it's been several days since my morning with my Sir, and i'm feeling pretty good, mostly. More settled, less unsure, at any rate. i have to believe that's a good thing. Sir did say some things that made me wonder, but as nothing horrible has come to pass in the past 4 days, i'm letting go of the feeling that i'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. At least, that's the plan.

Waiting for what could be bad news just wears me out.

i mentioned that Sir really, really wants us to find a third party, a female, to join us in a play session. i've also mentioned that i'm not thrilled about it.  And i've also mentioned that i have agreed to at least look into it and then see what happens. So - i sent a quick message to someone that potentially matched the criteria that Sir has outlined. And i sent a photo of myself. i'm not comfortable with it, but i did say i would try .....

So, i'm tryng. And again, i wait to see what happens.